In my last entry I shared a reason for these blogs. I said that writing gave me freedom. I thought about that a bit again and realized that people that write also do this in hopes to find an audience to influence, one that will validate their ideas and feelings as well.
Ever since I can remember I have always felt rushed when I speak. I can be in a conversation and when it is my turn to share I feel this pressure to get out what I have to say in order not to bore, confuse, or shock the other person. I know self conscious or what??
The thing is I am generally not an insecure girl. I know what I feel and believe and have no problem articulating when I must. But I think that when I write, this pressure of getting my thoughts out perfectly is gone. With this wonderful key board I can backspace as much as I like until the feelings I had inside perfectly take their form.
Paul said "My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power"
My greatest dependence should be on the power of the Spirit and His ability to demonstrate the life in me that Jesus continues to transform. This entirely liberates me from all performance or need to say something clever in order to win people´s approval.
This might be silly for some, but there are those of you who know exactly what I am saying. So here´s to you...
<3 CaRis
